Monday, February 9, 2009

What to do?

I am not feeling very happy right now. Things are hard on me, I am sad. Bad stuff is happening in my life and I am powerless to control it. It is hard to get on here and write, I think I need to be funny and entertain. But I have to remember that I started this blog as a diary, to help me. So I am not going to really be funny today. Sorry.

When things get out of control and I cant do anything to change it. I have to change the way I think about the situation. Which is hard because I am human and prone to human passions. Still I am trying. I want to not be so angry at those that hurt me and not want to hurt them back.

I want to go Kung fu on them (as Crash would say).

I was talking to my sister and telling her that I really want to not be so angry. She told me it is going to be hard. She said that her daughter has some problems at her school. She was student body president and was caught using her cell phone at school ( her Period had started and she went to the bathroom to call her mom to bring her some clothes). Well the assistant (ass.) Principal called her into her office and my niece lied and said that she did not use the phone. So the ass. Principal decided that since she wanted someone else in that position who had not won that she would relieve my niece from office and appoint the other girl.

My sister was furious. She went to talk to the lady and the lady put her hand in up to her face and said she was not going to talk to her. The decision had been made, she had made the announcement over the intercom and it was final. Now leave.

Her husband talked to her later that night and said he would not bail her out of Jail if she got arrested, and she better stay at home instead of going back to the school. My sister said to this day she is furious and had never felt like she could actually take a gun an kill someone until this woman. She said, if she could she would have this woman murdered.

It has been months since the incident and she has yet to murder the ass. principal. But she has her fury still.

I don't want to kill the people who are causing me and my family harm. Yet. They are just doing what they think is right. But I am struggling at where to put my anger and how to control this rage and fury inside of me. Many people are praying for me and my family. I hope that I can come out of this terrible situation a better person.


Kristina P. said...

I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. Hang in there!

hairyshoefairy said...

Sorry you have to deal with some crap right now. That's never fun. I hope it resolves itself soon and you can move on without too much baggage.

NOBODY said...

You can and you will.

I'm sorry you are going through a hard time right now. It's so hard to see past it when you are in the thick of it. Trust that it will get better, because it will.

I've decided that I will never be subjected to someone deliberately harming or abusing any of my children, or my husband cheating on me because it simply isn't in the cards for me to be a murderer. And I would be in either of those situations. Srsly.

The story of the principal infuriates me. That's the kind of stuff where you call the news station and you say, "I have a great little story about a corrupt principal playing favorites and disregarding an established pattern of democracy" and they're all "woohoo", and you're all "wait so I can threaten her first" and they're all, "Dangit!" And then you get your way.

Maybe that only works in Iowa.

Thinking of you though.

NOBODY said...

I just want to say:
People tell me I'm funny, and so I feel a lot of pressure to keep it upbeat and funny in my blog. And it's a stupid expectation to put on myself. I am who I yam. I think the real stuff, good, bad, ugly, funny, boring, whatever is SO much more appealing. People can relate to that. Nobody is any one thing all the time.

Except me. I'm always hawt. ALWAYS.

Jami said...

Hence, my annually renewed goal, "Do not kill anyone this year." No road rage, no suicide, no murder of pedophiles, no bad driving. No. No. No. So far, so good. I recommend everyone put it on the list right next to lose weight, exercise more, and spend more quality time with the family.

NOBODY said...

I put "boring" in there because I'm definitely guilty of it at times and I just want to tell myself out loud that people actually like boring.

I don't really believe it.

You probably shouldn't either.

NOBODY said...

oooh Jami butted in right in the middle of my comment hogging.

It's okay Jami.

Ann Marie said...

Sorry your struggling. I was last week, and I didn't feel like posting, but it was great to "escape" and get into other people's minds reading their blogs.. I hope you can make it through this trial ( whatever it may be ) without killing anyone...

Valerie(momof3crazykids) said...

I'm sorry that you are having to deal with that kind of stuff. I sure hope it subsides soon.
@Jami- I think I need to make that one of my goals too.

Anonymous said...

I can totally relate to you! I never understood how a woman could kill her baby until I had mine. I never did, but I understood the fury and desperation those women felt, and I don't blame them. I'm not saying they are not responsible, I'm just sayin', don't judge until you're in that situation and pray to God you never are because maybe you won't be as strong as I was and just walk away from it.

I also would do something sneaky like calling the news, except I wouldn't threaten her first, I would just let the reporter show up at her door right at first bell!

And the funny pressure? SO BEEN THERE!!! I admit it. I'm an attention whore. I don't write things I wouldn't write if nobody read, but it sure makes some of what I say more entertaining when I know people will read it and laugh! I have a couple of friends telling me I should write a book. Chances are, they're just blowing smoke. But even if they meant it, WTH?? Erma Bombeck already wrote it all!

Ok. The me session is over. I really hope you are able to feel the prayers and good thoughts of others who are wishing you nothing but the best during this difficult time. G.G. that sounded so cliche... but we mean it.