What to do?

I am not feeling very happy right now. Things are hard on me, I am sad. Bad stuff is happening in my life and I am powerless to control it. It is hard to get on here and write, I think I need to be funny and entertain. But I have to remember that I started this blog as a diary, to help me. So I am not going to really be funny today. Sorry.

When things get out of control and I cant do anything to change it. I have to change the way I think about the situation. Which is hard because I am human and prone to human passions. Still I am trying. I want to not be so angry at those that hurt me and not want to hurt them back.

I want to go Kung fu on them (as Crash would say).

I was talking to my sister and telling her that I really want to not be so angry. She told me it is going to be hard. She said that her daughter has some problems at her school. She was student body president and was caught using her cell phone at school ( her Period had started and she went to the bathroom to call her mom to bring her some clothes). Well the assistant (ass.) Principal called her into her office and my niece lied and said that she did not use the phone. So the ass. Principal decided that since she wanted someone else in that position who had not won that she would relieve my niece from office and appoint the other girl.

My sister was furious. She went to talk to the lady and the lady put her hand in up to her face and said she was not going to talk to her. The decision had been made, she had made the announcement over the intercom and it was final. Now leave.

Her husband talked to her later that night and said he would not bail her out of Jail if she got arrested, and she better stay at home instead of going back to the school. My sister said to this day she is furious and had never felt like she could actually take a gun an kill someone until this woman. She said, if she could she would have this woman murdered.

It has been months since the incident and she has yet to murder the ass. principal. But she has her fury still.

I don't want to kill the people who are causing me and my family harm. Yet. They are just doing what they think is right. But I am struggling at where to put my anger and how to control this rage and fury inside of me. Many people are praying for me and my family. I hope that I can come out of this terrible situation a better person.